Thursday, December 27, 2007

Happy Holidays!!

I'm still here...
Did I mention I'm still here?

Came in to work yesterday for 3 hours because I had to set up the NewFreekingComputers on the office network. Went home to find a letter from the bank in the mail telling me my FreekingPaycheckFromChristmasWeek bounced. What a joke. Yeah. I'm still here.

The house is great.
It's not going to fix my marriage, but it's a great house.

Having my son home is wonderful.
At least as much as I can enjoy having him home with DH bitching about him being home that is.
He's here until Saturday. I'm cooking all of his favorites and well, enjoying that too as much as I can enjoy it with DH bitching about my cooking all of his favorites.

SIL and her husband will be here tonight for a week.
Maybe having them around will be somewhat of a buffer and it won't be so awful.

Did I mention I'm still here?
Something has to give.
I told my DH on the 15th that if he doesn't quit his yelling and bitching about everything under the sun for no reason at all I'm leaving. I don't deserve the awful, ugly, mean and hurtful things that constantly come out of his mouth. I'm tired of being numb. I'm tired of biting my tongue and walking away. I'm just...well, Tired.

So it lasted all of 10 days. The peace, I mean. Without him constantly bitching at me. Nothing is ever right, or good enough, or well, up to his freeking high standards. Which, by the way, change with the wind or the sunrise or well, the moment.

I'm doing some very serious thinking about some really big resolutions for myself for the new year. Right now, it may include leaving him. But first I've got to manage to find a job where the paychecks don't bounce.

And survive his bitching the rest of the time Mr.Blue is home.
And survive his sister and her husband coming for a week.

So there you have it.
The real reason I haven't been writing lately. I've been really unhappy for a really long time. Now, I just have to figure out what to do about it...

and do it.

Happy New Years.
and thanks for listening.

K

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Step In The Right Direction.

Oh man.

I got the call for the 2nd interview Monday. Both appointments were over on State Street in the capitol city. A block apart. One at 9 and one at 2. ...the first one was ok. But I don't want to do temp work when I could be here. The second one. OMG. the firm is over 100 years old. some heavy hitters work there. My interview lasted an hour and a half. I have my fingers crossed because it would be a dream job with a dream pay.

OK. Then I came back this morning and the sec made all sorts of changes to the phone. at 8:40 we realized they were not ringing and they'd been disconnected. She'd 1) failed to pay the bill and 2) authorized someone who'd faxed ME a quote on the phones to switch our service. (InsertBadWordHere). I jumped on her ass. I'm the only one authorized to make changes on the phone system and I review quotes and run them by my boss a couple times a year. They can't do business without the damn phones. I reminded her that I do still work here and some of what comes through here is actually my job to do and she needs to back off.

Man I feel better

Back to the interviews.
I want the job from yesterday afternoon.
She handed me a two-page (TWO PAGE!) printout on their benefit packages.
I wish I'd been not so nervous and a little bit more well spoken. (hindsight)
The position wouldn't be doing the same sort of work I'm doing now, which I really love. It's an executive legal secretary for a lobbiest and a 1st year associate. Very nice pay. I could see myself there.

So that's where that's at.
In the meantime, I've been promised another (ANOTHER? I NEVER GOT THE LAST ONE) raise to keep me here and not do temp work. Yeah whatever. Show me the freeking money.

Happy Holidays.

Monday, December 10, 2007

Ok. No More Whining...

Everybody cross your fingers. toes. Anything else you're able to cross.

I've got an interview in Jackson tomorrow.
9:00 a.m. sharp. (CST)
...and I'm waiting on a lady to call me from a different agency who's trying to arrange a second interview while I'm over there.

Yes. I bought a new pantsuit with jacket.
Not going to have time to get my hair cut before I go though.

Ready. Set. Cross em!

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Yeah well...

Ok, so I still haven't got the pictures posted. They're still there on my phone waiting , promise.

Ms.Blue spent all weekend baking Christmas cookies to send with cards to airmen in Iraq. She put me on speakerphone and I got to enjoy an hour of listening to her chatter and decorate with her friend and NavyBoy. It was so sweet... Sometimes I'm really proud of her... sometimes.

Mr.Blue called day before yesterday. He changed the dates that he'll be here so that he can meet up with an air force buddy in Houston and then go up and catch the air force academy football game the weekend after Christmas before they have to head back to their base... AND... he got his papers for his first assginment. He's going to spend the first part of his time in the service on a base 3 hours and 20 minutes away from home. So much for seeing the world and all that good stuff.

There's a fact of life now that both my airmen talk to me about that I sure never factored in when they were born. Deployment. Life insurance. Funerals. My children shouldn't have to be thinking about things like that at their age... but anyway... so Ms.Blue should be good until '09 unless something major stirs up between now and then... Mr.Blue can go anytime after April... he was trying to explain to me yesterday that where Ms.Blue will go for 4 months at a time, he can go anywhere from a day to a few months and may go often because of his job. ...at least he's preparing me for the possibles. Knowing is so much better than the unknown... I don't know what I'm going to do if the baby makes that choice also. Not sure I'm that big of a woman to have all three kids serving at the same time. It's enough to make you crazy...

So... Mother in law announced that she is coming back to spend the week when sister in law is coming. Oh Lord help me...

...I'm not a happy camper right now.

Monday, December 03, 2007

No Rest For The Weary...

It seems like the past couple of months have just dragged on forever.

We're finally moved.
yes, I have pictures for you on my cell phone. I'll try to get them uploaded and posted asap.

And now that I'm only 20 minutes away from Clinton and 35 minutes or so away from Jackson, DH has finally caved in (after 2 years of my nagging!) and is "allowing" me to look for work over yonder in big city. Now that we have a mortgage, he's kinda realized that my paycheck bouncing more often than not might not be a very good thing... so I'm looking. Not finding anything... but looking

(Hey Stacy! If you hear of ANYTHING please give me a call! thanks :) ...)

There are a couple of handfulls of boxes left to unpack. Mr.Blue is coming home from the 23rd to the 29th... Hooray! Ms. Blue can't come home until spring, but the good news is they did not draw her number to go to the Sandbox or Korea, so she should be good and staying stateside until around 2009. (happy Mom!) ...SIL and her husband should be arriving to stay with us the 27th-Jan2. I am not impressed with DH's family at the moment deciding after all these years they all need to show up within a couple of weeks of each other. I have not yet got to finish unpacking and enjoy my house. I have not spent one minute in the woods this season either.

If I still had the parts to PMS boy would I be PMSing right about now. But no.

Tonight, I'm going to try and enjoy my house... We spent all day yesterday (it was 77 degrees!) trying to get the new jacuzzi up and running and figured out. ...after dinner tonight that's where I'll be. ...but hey. Dont' tell my inlaws. ok? I really could use an hour to myself to en joy my new house before the next holiday!