Hey! ...and Happy New Year too!

December brought on a downward spiral and some pretty depressing days for me this year. I think having Ms.Blue away during Christmas for the first time was almost harder in some ways than her leaving the day after Christmas last year. She ended up working 12 hour shifts through the holiday, with most of the others in her squadron being home with new babys so that was a good thing she was doing... and of course our pilots in blue have to have their plane parts ordered regardless of whether or not it's Christmas, right? So I guess her not being home for Christmas this year was just doing her part in protecting our freedom... it was hard having her away though... really REALLY hard.
I finally caved and put a little decorated tree up, and hung her stocking up near the tv... Gosh, I'm almost crying remembering how hard it was without her. Thank GOD it's almost New Years... I've been through one of those without her, so I think I might be able to do another one... The only problem with this one is that it's Mr.SoonToBeBlue's last one before he flies away (sigh). Lasts. Firsts. All these years later and I still haven't found the freeking manual that was supposed to have been delivered when the kids were born!
Just gotta make it a few more days and it will all be over for another year.

Hope you have a good one!
See you in '07!
-Kimdergarten

A Christmas Miracle...

On May 2, when we found out that SIL had cancer throughout her whole body and less than 50% chance of living 2 weeks, with a new baby and two other kids at home, it was rough. My baby brother had just turned 29 the day before and I cannot imagine what he has had to go through in the days, weeks and months that followed.

...my brother called yesterday afternoon. SIL's cancer is in full remission.
I may be the grinch who hates Christmas again this year, but miracles do happen!

RE: Not A Damn Thing...

Nothing blogworthy of late I'm afraid...

I called Ms.Blue on Saturday and teared up because she wasn't there for the kids annual picture with Santa. Yes, I realize that she's 19 now and too old for a picture w/ Santa. Mr.SoonToBeBlue is 18 though... he jumped up there and perched on the arm of the chair next to the fat old guy and had a flirty smile, I think he liked the elf taking the pictures... Then last night, Ms.Blue called me bawling her eyes out because it just hit her that she isn't going to be here for Christmas this year. She's proud of the fact that the day after Christmas will be her 1 year anniversary in the Air Force. But that doesn't make it any easier on any of us... This is our last Christmas before Mr.SoonToBeBlue leaves too... I'm holding it together, but barely. There's no tree. No stockings. No decoratations AT ALL. Our house looks like there is no Christmas... ...yeah, I have presents hidden for the kids. The will have Christmas, even if I want to pretend this year like it isn't gonna happen...

Oh Yeah!

G O

C H A R G E R S!!!!!!

Scorecard Update!

I haven't written anything about the new sec in ages. Let me fill you in on what's been going on with her while I have a few minutes to write...

She's funny as hell. I'll give her that... in a very country, raw, southern, sluttish sort of way. She's loud too. Always on the phone... she's been here five months and is already in debt to the bosses for about 10k. And boy oh boy does she think she's the hottest thing to hit this little town since they invented the wheel! Goodness... She's dating one of the attorney's sons. She's sleeping with the process server! ...and some married guy and some other dude she plays with on myspace. The sad part is she can't seem to spare me the details, which I still don't give a shit about and she hasn't figured out that when she asks "you've tuned me out again, haven't you... KIM! You aren't listening to me..." that I really don't wanna hear all the details... she's not my best friend and isn't gonna be.

The old sec called me Monday morning to see if I was ok, she said she knew Ms.Blue would be leaving and just was checking in... that was awfully sweet.

Ok. Back to the new sec. She can't stay in her seat. I'm spending about 50% of my day answering the phone telling people that she's not in the office and asking them to call back because she's running errands. I mean every freeking day. During that 50% of the workday, I'm also having each of the attys asking again and again where she's at. And why she's gone. (sigh)

My raise is back to being the joke of the office. But right now I'm not regretting staying. I had Ms.Blue here with me most of the days she was home, and that would not have happened if I was at the other firm... plus being sick, would not have been a great way to start over there. I've just got to hang on until something gives and it's the right time/place to make a move I guess...

Anyway... that's it for today.

Wow...

I really suck at blogging these days. I'll think of something and don't ever seem to get around to writing about it.

It was a wonderful 2 weeks with Ms.Blue home. I can't describe the little things and ways she's matured and grown. The new confidence she radiates. It is awesome. I hated letting her go back to her base! Sunday and yesterday were both difficult to get through, but a dozen email and phone conversations and she's settled back in and I have the feeling life is going to be ok for both of us. It was her first "real leave" and to tell you the truth, I'm looking forward to the next one... it is really hard letting your daughter get on a plane and go back to the air force, and have no clue in the least as to when you might get to see her, hug her again.

Today is better though. A little anyway. I still have the "I'm FREEKING PEACHY" thoughts now and then, when I get those LOOKS from people... the ones where you can see behind the eyes that they're thinking... 'is she gonna lose it?' yeah those.

Maybe now I can settle down and get back to writing more often. There's 3 of those burninglove shows at Christmas parties to get through in the next week. That in itself should provide tons of bloggable tidbits. I'll keep my eyes open for ya...